Patrick Watts

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ill-will

“Be assured those will be thy worst enemies, not to whom thou hast done evil, but who have done evil to thee. And those will be thy best friends, not to whom thou hast done good, but who have done good to thee.” (Tacitus)

“Men are more ready to repay an injury than a benefit, because gratitude is a burden and revenge a pleasure.” (Tacitus)

“If you would know who controls you see who you may not criticize.” (Tacitus)

“It is a principle of nature to hate those whom you have injured.” (Tacitus)

“It is exactly the fear of revenge that motivates the deepest crimes, from the killing of the enemy’s children lest they grow up to play their own part, to the erasure of the enemy’s graveyards and holy places so that his hated name can be forgotten.” (Christopher Hitchens)

Neurosis cured only by death

“I remember a very impressive case of this, a girl about twenty-five years old who had a compulsion neurosis. She proved to be absolutely inaccessible. She lived things, she did things, but she did not know what she was living. I said: “Cannot you see what you do, damn it?” But no, nothing touched her, so she had no relation to the world at all, she lived in a sort of mist. Finally I said: “Well, it is no good, I cannot waste my time any longer; if you will not try to see what you are doing I must give it up.” And it happened that three or four months later she shot herself, and since she was a stranger here I was called in to give evidence, I saw the corpse. She had shot herself through the heart in the street and had not lost consciousness for a minute or two. The expression on her face was completely altered. For a long time I stood watching her face and asking myself: “What kind of expression is that?” It was most extraordinary, the expression of someone who was convinced, say, that a thing was black and to whom it was very important that it was black, but to whom one had finally proved that it was red; and now it was as if she suddenly realized it was red. It was a look full of bewilderment and a sort of pleasant surprise. I saw what had happened: at the moment when she shot herself, while she was still alive, yet felt it was done and irrevocable, she understood what life was for the first time.” C.G. Jung, Visions, 6 May 1931 + C.G. Jung & Individuation, Craig Nelson

edification

There are those who want to know,
so that they may know; that is curiosity.
There are those who want to know,
so that they may be known; that is vanity.
There are those who want to know,
so that they may sell their knowledge;
and that is wretched self-seeking.
But there are those who want to know,
so that they may edify others; that is love.
And also those who want to know,
so that they may be edified; that is wisdom.

– St. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs XXVI
[my collated translation]

play vs competition

A distinction needed to be made between play and competition. I think it’s terrible that someone goes around the neighborhood with a winner takes all attitude, even trying to control who sees the door at someone else’s house. You can play go relaxed and not get emotional about losing, but that is not likely to happen when the person you are playing against prefers to compete and to take possession of other peoples time and space!

ruling party

The ruling party appeared poorer than the farmers. They appeared to force people into cages out of outrage at the chaos. From this perspective, making money might not be a bad thing if it means selling vegetables, food products, and herbs. Not everyone wants you doing that, too dangerous, too vulnerable, too unfair, too free, too dangerous. They want you equal to them, and predictable to them, to live as they do, bit by bit, predictable and controlled and by the stick to make you sick.

Invictus, by William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
for my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

malicious interviewing

One trait that I dislike in people is malicious interviewing, which is a type of interrogating that involves asking questions that have no respectable answer, the questions are not designed to produce insight and clarity, but rather, to activate fear. In a malicious interview what they essentially want to know is how big is your dick, what terrible deeds have you done, why you look so weak, how many trophy’s do you have for what, and how much money do you have. Everything else is superfluous. It’s like, “Just tell us that, now.”

Maturity sees that there are no literal answers, and that personal and private knowledge is precisely that, personal, and therefore such knowledge is easily abused.

So, from a universal and impersonal view, we might say that we want to reinforce a curiosity that goes beyond the individual, as Marie Currie said, “be more curious about ideas, and less curious about people.”